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Boobie monsters. No longer just one, but now TWO. One on each freaking side.   One settles down, the other flares up, and vice versa. Boobs are meant to be fun, not hell :(

General asshat Surgeon

Saw a douchey doctor, who criticised me for wearing a bandaid on a lesion that was in the icky "slow draining" stage. I had been out of the house for 5-7hrs at this point, and needed something to well, keep it from seeping into my bra/clothes, and the asshat scolds me for using a freaking bandaid.

Then the asshat continues to insult me, telling me "ITS NOT HS. IT'S A STAPH INFECTION" first off, I'm quite sure (MIGHT be wrong, but i can't be assed googling) that staph infections contain bacteria. I've had a few swabs taken and sent off for testing, which came back with a result of "no bacteria found"

After telling him that this is ruining my life (seriously, i'm emotionally screwed up with a screwy head) he starts blabbing on about how all through uni he had hives, but he's clear now. How does this relate to me? you had hives? rightio... You don't have these monsters covering ALL of your body, you're not in agony most days, you don't have something that can hold you back from getting out of bed, because it's too painful.

When he was done blabbing on about all of that, he had me practically strip down so he could see it all. That was embarrassing as hell. Let's go back to my screwy head... I fear intimacy, I fear having to strip down and be exposed for someone to look at my body. It's hard enough getting involved with someone sexually with the lights turned off, let alone stripping down infront of an asshat doctor. Regardless, I did it. I hated every second of it, and I was bawling my eyes out, becuase I'm so ashamed of my body. I know it's not my fault that I look like this, but I can't help it. Screwy head! 

He still stuck to his so called professional opinion that it's not HS. i personally feel he needs to go back to university, or actually look into the freaking disease, but whatever! told me to use combine dressing and phisohex to bathe in which doesnt freaking work and to make an appointment to go back in two weeks. I opted not to go back, becuase there was no point, he's clearly set in his ways, i'm better off doctor shopping and find one that actually has a freaking clue.

can't remember if I bitched about it before, but I was actually given the referral to see this asshat doctor to have the lesion (boobie monster #1) incised, drained, cleaned & packed with gauze. By the time I actually got to see the asshat doctor, the lesion had kind of healed. The time of receiving the referral it was a huge open hole, the time of seeing the asshat doctor it had healed, but had just filled up and started draining slowly again. Basically, it was just a huge waste of time, resulting in me going home to bawl my eyes out yet again, and getting drunk for the first time in years.

I was livid by the time I got home, the first thing I did was crawl into bed and just cry. I cried my heart out for about 30-45 minutes. I had a couple glasses of vodka to take the edge off and calm me down, which ended up turning into half-3/4 of the bottle!

Skin robot Specialist

I saw a robotic doctor a few weeks ago. I got the referral for this woman the same time that I got the referral for the general asshat surgeon. I had a friend take me to the appointment, and come in with me, as I was advised by the doctor referring me to this woman, that she was very.. blunt? that was an understatement. She was a freaking robot! Even my friend thought so!

We got in the waiting room, and waited for about 20 minutes or so before seeing her. Was literally in this womans office for 5 minutes. Yet another waste of time.

She asked a bunch of questions, and barely gave an opportunity for a response. I mentioned HS to her, and again like the asshat, she turned it down pretty quick. Didn't give an explanation why. She looked at the lesion that has been giving me grief (boobie monster #1) and started writing crap down on one of those labwork sheets, to send me off to have swabs/blood etc taken. All I wanted was a referral to the local hospitals dermatologist clinic, but all I got was another waste of time!

When we got out of there, my friend had no idea what to say, she was stunned at the robot doctor. I don't blame her! I'm glad she came in with me though, this doctor was quite... arrogant, and to relay the experience with others, you would not believe it. But I got a witness! Thankfully this robot doctor was bulk billing, so I didn't waste any money, just time.

Laser Hair Removal!

I had my first round of laser hair removal on the brazillian/buttocks area recently. It's been recommended to help with HS, and lesions and stuff. Wasn't cheap, it set me back $128, but if it helps in any way, then I guess it's money well spent every 6 weeks. It didn't hurt so much, I was expecting it to hurt alot on areas that had scars / flareups etc. The only areas that really hurt, was 10-12 pulses of the laser on the vaginal lips, other than that, it was relatively pain free.